Retail Retirement

Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired °❀.ೃ࿔*

In the few short years I've been considered an adult, the illusion of having just one job to support myself has been quickly shattered. I won't deny that I've been quite spoiled up until roughly 2022. I lived at home with my parent, so I didn't need to worry about things like food, car insurance, and all the other ridiculous expenses that come with living in the world. Now that I'm out on my own, I've come to the dreadful realization that I can't so much as breathe without having to spend money. Hell, I tell myself that I need to lower expenses and then some how, some way, a new fee or bill comes rolling my way. I thought I would be alright so long as I kept my head down and just did my job, but that is no longer an option for me. 

Retail, in my opinion, isn't a job. What it is, is a soul sucking nightmare you drudge through every other day for the payment of a swift kick to the nuts. No amount of money will ever be able to compensate me after screwing up my back, only to be yelled at by a man with no redeeming qualities about something we never carried in stock though he swears we sold it and we're just hiding it from him. Do people actually believe that? That a retail employee cares enough to go out of their way to hide product for some nefarious purpose? I mean, sure, I've hidden a few booster packs of PokΓ©mon cards for myself, but it isn't like I'm going out of my way to hoard their preferred brand of shampoo up my ass like they so certainly suspect. Leave me the hell alone, I just got off my 30 minute break that felt like 10 minutes and I do not want to hear why I ruined your day because we are out of your favorite vegan donuts. 

  
Have I considered other jobs? Of course! What, do you think I hate myself enough to stay in a career so deeply thankless that some people would sooner be homeless than work it? When getting down to the brass tax, as someone without a college degree (couldn't afford it and I refuse to take on student debt,), the job market is quite limited. Either I work in the food industry or I work retail. The food industry is completely off the table because I have food aversions so strong that I struggle to up keep my own kitchen, much less one with foods touched by others. Honestly, I wouldn't mind my job as much as I do if they would just stop asking me, the girl with scoliosis so bad that my spine is starting to look like a screw, to unload trucks and lift boxes 1/4th my weight. There are, like, four other grown ass men that are fully capable of doing this, but they just disappear the second we get a delivery in the back room. 

There is something so soul crushing about taking a hard look at some of the coworkers around you. When you go to work, if you work in retail, or just go into any major retail locations like a Walmart, I'm sure you don't really think twice about seeing a little old lady working there. How long has she worked there? What dreams of hers have died under the blinding white luminescence of these buzzing over head lights? Will this be my fate so long as I remain in this abyss of sweatshop products and over priced commodities or will I find my escape?

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