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My Mother

 I  had a visit with my mother for the first time since going no contact with her back in July of last year. I hadn't spoken to her, seen her, or heard any news of her. As far as I was concerned, the woman was as good as dead. Through unforeseen events, I met with the saint of a woman that has stuck with her through all of her prescription drug and alcohol abuse. I was stuck in a McDonald's parking lot due to some car issues down the road from one of the main hospitals in my city, one my mother would end up in often due to her own acts of foolishness. Going into my call list, I had seen a blocked number had called me, one which I hadn't remembered blocking. Taking a chance, I called her back. She told me all that she has been through, the verbal abuse at the hands of my mother through all of this. This woman is nothing short of an angel, keeping on despite blow after blow. But, in the end, no matter how kind someone can be, they all have their breaking points, and this was ...
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Hobby Hell and Expression Struggles

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 Every piece of media I consume as a child has shaped my brain in ways I could never properly explain. I was nothing short of enraptured by the fascinating animations of Chowder, with their mixture of claymation and stop motion media, or the dazzling puppetry of Jim Henson. To this day, each time I go back and watch an old show or movie, I'm still left in an almost dazed sense of awe. A part of me screams 'I want to do that! I can  do that! I  will  do that!' with a volume that shakes my soul. I find it important for people, beyond just myself, to have a drive to create! It enriches the human experience, and even if it isn't the best work in the world, you're still bringing something in to existence! The downside of this, however, is the new mountain of hobbies at your back.  I've talked about WIPs before on this page, as I am no stranger to unfinished business. But now I want to take some time to talk about the urge to create with no supplies to express. I have...
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Retail Retirement

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Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired  °❀.ೃ࿔* In the few short years I've been considered an adult, the illusion of having just one job to support myself has been quickly shattered. I won't deny that I've been quite spoiled up until roughly 2022. I lived at home with my parent, so I didn't need to worry about things like food, car insurance, and all the other ridiculous expenses that come with living in the world. Now that I'm out on my own, I've come to the dreadful realization that I can't so much as breathe without having to spend money. Hell, I tell myself that I need to lower expenses and then some how, some way, a new fee or bill comes rolling my way. I thought I would be alright so long as I kept my head down and just did my job, but that is no longer an option for me.  Retail, in my opinion, isn't a job. What it is, is a soul sucking nightmare you drudge through every other day for the payment of a swift kick to the nuts. No amount of money will...
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WIPs- Works In Pieces

₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱ Let's Talk W.I.Ps! ⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ Most any person on the internet who is creative in some facet has heard the term 'WIPs', meaning work(s) in progress. For me, it means I have yet another project I'm going to start and never finish. As someone with a never ending list of hobbies, I also have a never ending list of projects that I bounce between before eventually giving up and shoving them where I'll eventually forget about their existence. I just have so many ideas and there is only so much time in the day! I feel like if I don't start the project immediately, then I'll lose what motivation and inspiration that I had in the moment, lost to the endless void that is my hole filled memory. Sometimes, I'll manage to write it down only for it to end up just another scribbled sticky note in the sea of them stuck about the length of my desk! Don't get me wrong, I love the creative parts of me that are cranking out new ideas left and right, but the do...
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Hello World

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─ ⊹ ⊱  Back to the Basics   ⊰ ⊹ ─ ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ Hi! I'm not the most interesting person in the world, but I've decided that this is going to be a year of change for me. I, like a lot of you, have grown tired of being constantly bombarded with AI slop, useless new tech that serves no purpose, and the drudgery that is social media as a whole. So, I've decided the change I wish to make in my life is to step back and return to the basics of what I know, like burning CDs, using my digicam more, and writing on a blog . My main hope is to try and reach someone, anyone, out there that might be going through what I'm going through, or at least bring someone a smile. I hope to connect with many of you out there, where ever you are!
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